Been A Long Time

I think its time for another blog. Its been a long time since my last one, I was gonna concern myself with gifts and suggestions on them, but with my current relationship in limbo at the moment, I feel it is unimportant.
-Moving on then, I will do my most current rant, and perhaps my last, cause I have better things to do, on my thoughts about the past 3 years. Its been a good 3 years, I suppose. I've really enjoyed having at least one solid friend, but at the back of my mind thats what I'm starting to think it was. A friendship more than a relationship....But, more than that. Something strange and twisted, but not in an evil way.
-Overall, I wanted more emotion, more devotion, and more time together.
Its so cruel sometimes, all the fantasies, movies, TV, games, stories...they portray these wonderfully handsome men who are entirely devoted to a woman, even if they have flaws or troubles, they remain unconditionally in love with the heroine. With so much of that surrounding us, its hard to be confronted with the harsh reality that there are no men like that. There may have been sometime, but not now. Like a lot of women, (I may have ranted about this before) I feel like I have, I wished for my knight in shining armor, especially because i really like all that medieval stuff, but mine fell a little short of what I expected. I am still happy and grateful for him, but I cant help but wonder if there are men like that somewhere, in some far off country or planet.
I guess they dont exist, and I guess I'm too particular. But, I would prefer to be alone than to be disatisfied. I guess thats what a lot of women are too...alone. Thats not so bad if you have other friends to be with too. I just wonder if thats really for me...
Do the goods outweight the bads? I suppose so....Its important to have someone nice, caring, healthy, and commited....but if they arent there most of the time, then are those qualities really valid? It all sums up to a little bit more than a good friendship.
-I suppose I am ready for a bit more than a good friendship, and will be forced to move on should the opportunity present itself.
-As for right now, my thoughts are jumbled on how I should go about more daily actions. Is it that easy to simply break up with a person? No...its a hard process if you really like them. Its not so easy when they havent done anything wrong in particular. Even so, I feel like I must take a stand. If I dont try for something else, then I wont know what else is out there. So, I think this will be my last blog, since I only have one person really reading them. But, it was fun while it lasted, thanks for reading my random rants on various games....mostly cause i couldnt find the appropriate forums to put it on. Who knows, I may decide to start them up again one day. But...as for now, the blogs are discontinued. You wanna know what I'm thinkin' about? Call me sometime (you dont call enough) and see. *hint* (Calling means you care about what I think)
I suppose if i have to spell it out like that then either I dont know the male species very well (quite possible), or I need to be looking for a specimen that can decipher my hints. :3 (i dont like to be mean and just tell u outright, what would be the fun in that?)